Jen and I both have our reasons for living, loving, writing DISGRASIAN. I can’t speak for hers, but me, I’ve got reasons aplenty. One in particular has been lurking deep inside of me for over a year or however long we’ve been at this, a dark secret I never thought I’d make public. It’s my tornado of shame, my source of personal disappointment, the bright yellow “D” written across my forehead.
Are you ready for this?
Please don’t hold it against me.
I’m Vietnamese-American, and I don’t speak Vietnamese.
I’ve tried to learn, a number of times. I’ve hoped to pick it up by listening to my parents or visiting Ho Chi Minh City for a week (yes, I shrugged my shoulders as I wrote that). But after spending the first 8 years of my life in corn country where I didn’t hear a syllable that wasn’t English (my parents had pretty much eliminated it from the house vernacular), my ears and tongue and brain became inept in that language Department. I just didn’t come together.
So there you go. I’m kinda DISGRASIAN. And I don’t want to end up on this frickin’ site, ever, even though I’m know that the situation is a bit of a disgrace. To the race. So I pick up my trusty laptop and write alongside Jen, day in, day out, blog or bust. Just to stay off of our site’s seemingly endless saffron pages. Ever with burden and shame.
I would give anything to learn my native tongue to perfection, and make my DISGRASIAN status a thing of the past. So far, I haven’t really figured out how. I pity me.
Oh, and reading today that Charles Jang, the Korean-American leading man of the new film Take Out, picked up fluent Mandarin as a second language for the role in only one year… made me feel just lovely. SALT IN THE WOUND, MUCH?
Thank you so very kindly, all of you kind and generous tipsters, for sending that lovely news my way. Why don’t you call my mom and remind her that her daughter is DISGRASIAN, too? Screw off!
Thanks, Aidel and Jasmine! Now screw off!
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